di pagi hari yang sunyi....

assalammualaikum and hi..

its 4.30am now
woke up at 3.00am just now
only realising that....
opppss sy telah tertdo
selepas kekenyangan makan pizza hut dgn BANYAKnye
ni la akibat ketiadaaan stdy group
dan perut kenyang dan mata berat
huhu
telah tdo dr kul 10 mngkn 9lebey smpai la kul 3
pastu x le tdo
dok update2 fb sket
blog2 hopping
iron baju
n pk sy patut stdy
huhu
tp ni br dpt kekuatan
mgkn patut berjumpa DIA dan mintak keberkatan

harini bakal jd ari yg panjang
pagi8-5pm akan keje di OGAC
semoga sy dpt byk prosedur, byk clerk case n present n blaja byk
hrap2 smua bejalan ngn lancar
sy mau masuk branula
dan buat high vaginal swab!
tp kul 9 klinik akan start
jd akan lari2 jap g klinik




erm dan patutnye sy x oncall
tp
shuk telah menambah jadual oncall
dan dijadualkan sy akan oncall d labour room malam ni
dan esk adalah hari grand ward round utk team oren
di mana sy perlu kaver bes sy yang ade TUJUH itu
ye dan kena prepare
lihatla kalu sy larat dan rajin
sya akan betahan utk oncall
dan terus betahan utk ward round itu
tp jika tdk bole
sy akan pulang ke bilik dan tdo saje
huhu
sbbnye malam esk sy akan tgk transformers sesi malam
x mau tertdo didalam wayang setelah emlabur duit pulak
lgpun pada ahad sy akan oncall jugak
jdnye
xpela kalu x berusaha sgt mlm esk
tp sy mahu cuba gak
sbb sy x observe delivery lg setelah 3 minngu
ape sy buat?
sibuk d wad agaknye
hahaha
skang d wad ade log in log out
masuk kul8am balik 5pm
ala2 punch card
tp
sbb sy rajen sket skang ni
pg2 sy akan gerak awal sket
7 lebey sudah bergrak
pagi ni pln mau gerak 730am
smoga sy x terbabs tdo

sudahla
sy mau buat cwu
cwu suda jmpa
tp rasanye mau buat weekend
sy pegi dulu
mau selak2 buku dan buat ape2 yg patut
kamu smua jaga diri

sy rasa sudah lama x bergelak ketawa ngn cik alinur dan khairil
suda lama tdk melalak d kotak merah jugak
meronta2 peti suara sy yg bak buluh perindu ni mau menunjuk bakat
erm, kata mereka kami PRHO
jd mngkn beginila kehidupan kami nnt
jd kena biasakan

ok sudah panjang merepek
sila berhenti
sy doakan hari anda2 smua baik aje

a wanted and planned pregnancy

sejak blaja O&G nih
masa history taking
it is important to ask d mother whether d pregnancy is wanted and planned or not?
why it is so important?
cause it will reflect how d mother will take care d pregnancy for d next 9 months

normally d 1st child will always be d wanted n planned one
so, d newly-become mother n father both will pretty much excited about d pregnancy
dat they will really follow d schedule 4 d follow up
taking care d pregnancy well
cause its their no 1
their very 1st pregnancy, their 1st baby
it is new n they have dis excitement

and normally, d parents wouldnt b as much excited as their 1st
for their 2nd pregnancy
that is why there is a 2nd child syndrome
where d 2nd child will always been labeled as indifferent
yet, it might not reflect all child

menjadi anak sulung dalam keluarga
i am pretty much sure
that i am a planned and really a wanted pregnancy
and it is a bonus for me for being d only girl in d family
well, mmg x dpt dinafikan sy ni sungguh la di treat ngan spesel
huhu..biasanye kalu nak mostly dapat
yang tak nak pun kdg2 dpt
being d eldest bring a lot of responsibilities
ade kejayaan yg perlu dilakarkan sbg aras penanda utk adik2 mengikut jejak langkah
kaklong kena behave, kaklong kena berjaya...baru adik2 bole jadikan contoh
i am really blessed 2 b born in my family
walaupun tdk la lahir dlm keluarga yg mewah
i noe dat both my parents r trying really hard 2 make me n both my brothers happy
yup, dorg x de la pilih kasih
but mmg x le dielakkan kalu i`m special
huhu
bayangkan td...baru je balik dr rumah
parents hanta blk kolej kul 7pm
kul 10.30pm dorg call dorg nk dtg hantar stock makanan
n belikan 2 baju kurung baru
without i`m asking for
huhu...
nasib baik dua adikku tu lelaki
kalu x dorg sure ade sntap2
huhu

fazrul smpai mengeluh x percaya tgk how they treat me
yup i maybe 23 years old already
but i think they still think i am still their 3 years old baby girl
huhu
i cant imagine mcm mana la agaknye sok kalu i da kawen nnt
huhu
mind u i x manja n spoilt ok
but i guess it`s how they showered me with their love
thanx a lot papa & mama
insyaAllah kaklong akan cuba yg terbaik

so dearest reader,
next tyme when u decided 2 have a family
make sure u really planned ur pregnancy n wanted d pregnancy
b it`s ur 1st, 2nd or even last

pengajarannye,
make sure there is proper spacing n gunala kaedah contraception yg sesuai utk merancang keluarga anda

dan akhirnye weekend pun menjelma

salam smua
its been a long n tiring week for me
huhu..nak mencatch up Obstetric n Gynaecology neh
mana ntah pegi ilmu2 di dada dulu
huhu
alhamdulillah dpt team oren
1st tyme rasa seronok masa grand ward round
x stress wpun nervous tetap ade


anyway ble smpai jumaat sgt excited
sbb weekend
n ari jumaat tu (12 JUN)
birthday papa yg ke-49
mmg mencabar btul
sbb malam tu ade stdy grup
ingat dorg dtg makan area2 cheras je
tp
ntah cane
kete mama rosak tgh jalan
cancel plan
kena g menjadi rescuer
huhu..merasa fada tolak kete 2 kali
last2 blk shah alam je
makan kat orchid thai
sedap makanan die
huhu

:: father-daughter moment ::

:: kira sekali la clb8 belated bday u.eju ::

sabtu x produktif
bwk blk buku2 O&G byk2 buat berat
xde mood nak bc
malam tu
papa xde
ape lg
panjang langkah ngn mama g tgk teater mana setanggi
macam ferAri rasanye bwk kete
yela
show start 8.30
tp gerak dr umah 8.20pm
smpai istana budaya 8.45pm
naseb bek dpt VIP parking
huhu da r dpt tiket org belanja
seat depan
huhu

:: mother -daughter moment ::

:: wif aunty azie n shahruddin thamby ::

and ahad menjelma
huhu kenduri kendara x le tolak
ina ajak teman g kenduri aqiqah anak sedara shahrir
die x familiar jalan
kat jalan Ipoh...
makan mmg best la
byk gle
siap dpt bwk blk lg kmbg
tp x suka makan
fada ngn papa r keje kan

:: besties ngan aiman yg comel ::

satu minggu telah berlalu
ok
harap2 next week ni akan lebey produktif
stakat ni
thanx to atil
rajen meneman nak g pg2
ble ade kwn smngt
kte pun jd smngt
insyaAllah
smoga minggu ini berjalan dgn lancar

saya berkeadaan baik

so group utk posting o&g da kuar
alhamdulillah sy dpt team oren
supervisor dr amelia
sgt lega dpt dr baik
hopefully i`ll maKE full use of my opportunities 2 do my best and acquire as much as i can

anyway,
akan ke teluk intan selama 2 minggu
untuk posting O&G start 5 julai ni
i`m goin 2 missed u.eju wedding kat pekan nnt
aishhh
sgt sedey
tp well that`s life as a medical doctor
i need 2 get used 2 it

anyway
skang ni kena catch up blk segala pelajaran O&G
x mau nmpk lemah n bodoh
jd kena blaja snggh
bukan nak tnjk kat org
tp utk diri sndiri
kan da jnji pada diri sndiri akan blaja lebey rajen

smlam bersoping ngn housemate kat tesco
byk snggh kami2 membeli x hengat dunia
anyway
sbb rajen mlm smlam b4 tdo buat sandwich telur
pg ni sgt happy dpt siapkan bfast utk housemat2 terchinta
huhu
pasni kena lebey rajen
yeah2

mari2 berusaha kwn2

ps: sy mendoakan smua kwn2 sy berada dlm keadaan gembira, segala masalah mereka akan dipermudahkan

a mix feeling

~its been a while
alhamdulillah sy sihat, selamat kembali dr kem ppd n btn d besut trengganu
kem was fun, an eye opener for a life as a ho
i enjoyed medical explorace d most
kem btn was as usual boring

well in less than 8 hours
i`m goin 2 start my first final yr clinical posting
i dunno how 2 describe
but its totally a mix feeling
at one end i`m all excited to enter d clinical postings
at another end i`m afraid that i`m not ready n well prepared
i dunno what 2 expect
i`m anxious n nervous who will b my supervisor
which team i`m gonna be allocated to
will i catch up
will i do well
will i do my best

i dunno
i just hope n pray
that everything will b as wonderful as i hope
i am visualize that i`m going 2 get a nice supervisor n a great team
that can help me to go thru another 2 months

good luck everyone
our journey begins~